Baby & Life

So Jacques and I have spent our entire week shopping for the baby. Finishing up on things we needed, Like a Pack and Play, and getting more things he does not need, like a million more toys and clothes. It is starting to get ridiculous his closet is filled with clothes. More clothes than I have. His toy box is full. He has a crib filled with stuffed animals. I mean it’s really just crazy. However neither of us (as in Jacques and I) seem to be able to stop. It’s like we took a drug and are hooked. It’s actually quite hilarious. I mean we can’t even go into a grocery store without finding some random little thing for him. He is not even born yet and in fact won’t be for another seven weeks and already he is so spoiled. I think it is a mixture of us being very fortunate lately on the financial aspect of our life(ALL THANKS TO GOD OF COURSE!!!!!!!!!) and also we feel truly blessed by God to even be having a baby, since I was told I would never have kids. This is a very special time in our life and He is our little gift from God so its hard not to want to give him everything!
On another note everything is going well. Jacques started school back up this week and I have to say I am so very proud of him. Seeing someone you love succeed is a really great feeling! Last Saturday we had our first of two child birthing classes and it was really great we had a very funny teacher and although we both know A LOT about birth and children and we knew almost everything we were taught we did learn a few things about the details of the birthing process. The VERY detailed videos however Jacques and I both could have done without. Jacques said it made him a little nervous... I THINK THAT’S FUNNY! The class overall though gave me the extra push of confidence I needed to officially say NO to an epidural. However I am not completely ruling out an epidural if I am in labor for a crazy amount of time. I will be attempting labor WITHOUT an epidural and do not want the hospital staff to offer it (or any other drugs) unless I ask for them. And Jacques is going to be there to do his best at talking me out of it every time I want it. But like I said after the class I feel very confident I CAN DO IT WITHOUT AN EPIDURAL. I believe in myself and the strength God has given me. But who knows maybe ill be in labor for a really long time and just need that extra help, but with all the birthing position possibilities I am confident I will be just fine. Hope everyone has an amazing up coming weekend.

Aries Derrae Garcia-Blake

I can’t believe I only have 8 weeks left until I deliver. That truly blows my mind. I remember I had my 2nd ultrasound at 7 weeks and he was just a tiny little peanut that you could hardly even see! Now he will be coming soon and be big enough for me to hold and care for. As the time ticks closer I get so overwhelmed with a feeling of love its hard to really explain. I love my little peanut so very much and I have yet to actually meet him! It truly is an amazing feeling. The experience of becoming a mother is truly nothing less that a gift from God! I look around in the world and see and hear about mothers who abandon there children or do not properly care for them and I cant even fathom the idea of that. How is it you can not feel this love? How can you not want to show your child the love that he/she makes you feel? How do you not feel the love? I truly do not understand. I know this woman who is a mother of somebody very very close to me and over the years that I have known my friend I have seen how there mother has continuously treated them poorly and the effect it has had on my friend. I was raised in a different way where my mother loved me with everything she had in her so I never understood this other mother(of my friend) but now that I am about to be a mother or in essence already am one… I truly can not understand how she can go about treating her sons the way she does? It honestly makes me so sad inside. I feel as though every child she be able to know unconditional love and the fact that there are so very many mothers out there that don’t even show love to there children… well it really just breaks my heart. As a mother how do you just turn your back on your child? On a different note… I am getting very excited I have my first birthing class next weekend Even though I have seen 3 births and Have a very good idea on how I want my birth to go already I am still excited to learn anything that I might during the class! It is just so crazy how fast time is going. I know that the second September hits I’m going to blink my eyes and my son is going to be here! There is so much going on in September I Jacques starts school and he has a VERY FULL load, I am putting in extra hours before the baby comes since I am taking an extra long maternity leave… my pre registration papers are due at the hospital… I become full term and I start having doctor appointments EVERY WEEK!!! And by the weekend of the 12th I hope to have his room completed! Oh man this summer has flown by! Well as always I hope that everyone out there has the most amazing week possible! Also I decided That I am going to announce my sons name since so many people accidently found out at the baby shower. It has two meanings he is partly named after his daddy and also his name is the oldest Latin name in the history of the Latin people before the Greek stole it! oh and his last name is hyphenated because even though i am engaged when i get married i am also hyphenating my last name I WILL NOT get rid of Garcia because my father does not have any Sons and I am the oldest daughter... its a garcia thing to do. Any who his name is Aries Derrae Garcia-Blake! My little Aries! : ) Thanking God every day for this amazing blessing!

Changes

My whole pregnancy I have been very lucky. I have not had very many typical pregnancy symptoms and it has honestly been a very easy pregnancy. This weekend however I feel like everything just kind of caught up to me. I feel very sleepy and worn and I experienced my first braxton hicks contraction. It wasn't horrible but defiantly uncomfortable. I also have been a little moody. Like when I am happy I am really happy and when I am sad or frustrated I am really sad and frustrated. I Feel as though every thing makes me a little frustrated which in turn just makes me very frustrated because that is not really my personality. I am usually a rather calm laid back person. To not really have a huge amount of control over how i feel just kind of puts me in an uncomfortable place. Other than my new state of emotion ... I had my baby shower yesterday and we got more stuff than we ever imagined! The only thing we have left to buy before he comes is a swing(which we don't really have to pay for since we got two jumpers so we can return one and exchange it for the swing) and comfy clothes for me for coming home from the hospital. I feel so blessed we wont have to buy him any clothes for pretty much the first nine months of his life no diapers for the first 3 months and no wipes for the first 2. Well I suppose i should go try to get some sleep I have yet another early morning tomorrow for my 31 week OB appointment. I need my rest after all my doubles last week. I cant wait until Tuesday for my day off. I REALLY NEED IT!!!

BABY SHOWER

I am so excited for the baby shower in an hour I can hardly sit still! Sort of wish the humidity was not so bad today and my hair did not fall flat! : ( Oh well best day ever anyway!

LOVE

It has been a really crazy week for me. Between planning work events, throwing and having work parties, working 40+ hours a week and getting prepared for the baby shower this weekend I have hardly had time to breath. Although, I must admit no matter how much I keep trying to help with the baby shower stuff my family is only allowing me to be apart of a very small portion of it. I suppose with how busy I am that is probably a good thing, but I really enjoy party planning. Good thing I have a whole bunch of work parties to keep me busy. On another note I had my 3D/4D ultrasound yesterday and it was so amazing. To see all of his features in such detail and to see him really moving all around like that was just amazing. I mean there were a few times My heart just stopped because I was in such amazement. He is so handsome I truly cant wait to meet him 9 weeks and six days I cant believe it. The time is flying by so fast now. I remember when my baby shower was still 3 months away and now he will be here and in my arms in just two short months. I hold every moment so close to my heart I will never let it go. It is amazing what 40 weeks can do to a woman. Given I have only experienced 30 of those so far, but still every kick every flutter it makes me stronger it makes my heart grow. Who knew one could love so much. I mean My love for God is so strong and my love for Jacques is as well, but this is a different type of love. Like God has opened my heart to a new kind of love I cant quite explain. Its an amazing feeling. I see how God can love us all despite our mistakes and flaws because he created us. We are his children. The love for a child is an amazing love to feel! Something I don’t think even the best writer in the world could explain with words. It’s a feeling that forms and grows over the 40 weeks of pregnancy. God is amazing. He truly is. And Love is one of the most amazing feelings God blessed us with. I feel soooo blessed to be able to feel such an amazing emotion! Between God blessing me with the most amazing man for ME I have been blessed with a Son and right now the Love I have overflowing in my heart is a feeling I wouldn’t trade for anything else in the whole wide world! Well as always I hope everyone who reads this(which is close to no one I am sure) has the most amazing week they possibly could... ahhh I cant wait for my baby shower this weekend It is going to be so nice to see all my friends and family. Hope your weekend puts as big of a smile on your face as mine will!

~Always, Robin-Monique~